Seasons of Love

Wednesday, October 17, 2018

525600 minutes. 

No, this is not me reciting "Rent", although, if there was a musical to recite, that would be the one. It's just that I sat down in front of the computer with Blogger open but no words in my brain and that song popped into my head.

Appropriate given the day.

Tomorrow marks my return to work. My return to work following a year-long maternity leave.

525600... how do you measure, measure a year?

My pregnancy was a surprise. It felt long and short at the same time. I felt awful. I was unsure, lacking confidence in my ability to parent another baby. Wondering, as all mothers do, how I'd find a way to love another human being with the same ferocity as my first two.

And then she arrived. Lillian, my Lily Girl. Needless to say my concerns vanished. 9 months of worry gone in an instant. She was mine and I was hers. She just fit. It's like the Grinch who stole Christmas, my heart grew three sizes that day.

I've said it before but I'll say it again, Lillian was meant to be a part of our family. It was like the universe was privy to a plan we had absolutely no knowledge of. I am grateful every single day that there was a bigger plan for us.

personality for DAYS!


I return to work tomorrow and it's not just Lily I'm leaving. I feel like it automatically shifts things for Annabelle and Oliver too. Dinners won't be ready when they come home. Life will be a little (or a lot) more rushed. There will be times where I have to work late and I won't see them. There will be work stress in addition to life stress. 

Don't get me wrong (and I may be cursed for saying this), I'm not stay at home mom material. I admire the women who can and do stay at home but I need to work (for both financial and mental well-being). I need to work but that doesn't make it easy. Does that even make sense?

I wish there was some way to balance it - be home but also work. I mean, I know it's possible, it's just not possible for me right now.


Before you ask, yes, Oliver very much enjoyed this photoshoot **insert eyeroll emoji here**

I'm grateful for a year. I am beyond grateful to live in a country that values (and helps financially support) women and men who stay home with their children. I can't imagine less than a year. But a year is a blip on the radar that is life... only 525600 minutes after all.
In the essence of being grateful and finding the positive here are my lists:
I'm looking forward to:
having a reason to get "ready" in the morning
talking to adults other than my husband (I love my husband, but I'll appreciate more adult interaction on the regular"
all the coffee
work treats (double edge sword but I'm being positive so yay yummy stuff)
learning more (I love doing extra training etc)
reading
walks on my lunch
finding balance (or trying to find balance)
running errands on my lunch (time to do all the things)

Mat leave moments I'm grateful for:
being able to pick-up Annabelle from school
walks with my babies
excursions to the park
long car rides (while kids nap and I listen to books)
play groups
all the coffee
the giggles
the snuggles
the "firsts"
one-on-one time with each of my kiddos
picnics 
group naps!
play dates

getting all three kids looking in the same direction, eyes open and smiling is akin to mission impossible. I kid you not.

5265600 minutes... they were NOT all easy but they were OURS and I'm grateful to have had them.

I'll leave with this:

525600 minutes
525600 moments so dea
525600 minutes, how do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife
525600 minutes
How do you measure a year in the life?
How about love?
How about love?
How about love?
Measure in love
Measure in love
Seasons of love
Seasons of love




what I'm wearing (my gold shoe obsession!)

Wednesday, September 26, 2018

I haven't posted a picture of my outfit in... well.. I don't even know how long. Suffice to say, it's been a while.

Why now? Why in the middle of a giant blogging oblivion? The real answer? I don't know entirely. I love fall and sweater weather so I feel more comfortable in these clothes than any other time of the year. I also have been (again) contemplating this place and what I want it to look like (spoiler alert, I haven't come up with any answers - I know, you're shocked and amazed).

Whatever, I've been wearing stuff and I wanted to share it and that's the bottom-line. Also, I missed seeing what other people are wearing lol so here we are.

OH and I'm quite clearly OBSESSED with these gold loafers!!! I got them on sale and I LOVE them so much. That and they feel like walking on clouds, so that's nice. Plus, I feel like they just jazz up any outfit and I like gold.

Okay, here's what I've been wearing lately:

NOTE: the Blended Blog's prompt this week is plaid... so the scarf counts, no?


PS I'm so hoping I don't look as tired as I am, my kids have decided to take turns waking up through the night so I basically don't sleep. Thank the good Lord for coffee and makeup!!!

Happy Wednesday!

OHHHHH Don't forget to link up with the Blended Blog below (some of who I'll be meeting up with in a few short weeks eeeeeeek!!)



the blog, revisted

Friday, August 10, 2018

The baby is napping, little man is watching a show (it's educational, I promise) and mini me is at camp for the day. I've got limited time to write so need my fingers to cooperate and move quickly (we can thank coffee for that).

I've had a love/hate relationship with my blog for the last few years. I continue to be unable to say "I'm not doing that anymore" but also completely unable to dive back into things. There are lots of reasons for my back and forth but primarily it's time and not having a complete vision.

This place has been a mismash of things and that's okay but I always had something greater in mind, something more purposeful than a recounting of my daily life (which most probably wouldn't find all that exciting). I tethered around multiple ideas and have written down some plans but they all fell by the wayside because when it came down to it, when I did have "free" time, my first inclination wasn't "I must blog". I miss writing though. I miss sharing but sharing scares me.

So here I am, once again, writing basically the same post I have written multiple times since the beginning of my blogging hiatus (which conveniently coincided with my return to work after baby # 3).

Here I sit, once more revisiting the idea of this blog and this place and the challenge I continue to be unsure.

I am still not ready to officially "quit" but I know that when I come back it won't be as it was.

There is no point to this post besides to say "hi, I'm still here, still not sure what I'm doing" lol.

Hope everyone is having an amazing summer xo

TBB Asks - Vacation Edition

Monday, July 2, 2018


  1. YES! Nothing extravagant but we have rented a cottage with friends for a week! We'll also be borrowing my dad and stepmom's trailer for a weekend with the kids.
  2. I have 3 kids 5 and under... even if we do no scheduled activities, I would hardly call it relaxing.
  3. I will vacation any month lol. I love the weather here in July and August so if we're staying close to home I'm not too picky where it falls.
  4. I've never been on a cruise but I can't say I'd turn down a free one lol. Not sure how I feel about being trapped on a boat though lol. One day.
  5. Can't say we have a vacation tradition... maybe we'll start something this year ;)
  6. My honeymoon was in June in Mexico and it was amazing. Beautiful weather, amazing food, lots of a great day trips. So much fun!
  7. I'm a pack it all kinda girl... even "packing light" is more than most people would regularly pack lol (just being honest). I always think I'm going to need something I don't pack.
  8. I have yet to stay in a condo or house sooooo I'm not qualified to answer lol. THOUGH I will be staying in a house with the Blended Blog ladies in October. I'll get back to you on that one.
  9. ALL THE THINGS. If you can't eat everything on vacation then when can you? I probably eat more seafood than I normally would when I'm on vacation. YUM.
  10. Warm. I love the warmth!

Link up your TBB Asks Vacation posts below!! HAPPY SUMMER



the last day of the first year of school

Thursday, June 28, 2018

It was 10 short months ago we sent her off for her first day of junior kindergarten. We walked the short walk with our wee girl and I was terrified for her for all of the unknowns. I was worried about her having to open her lunches and decide what to eat, I was concerned about her making friends, I wondered if she'd be on good behaviour. I struggled with the loss of control and sending my 4 year old out into the world as an independent little person.

she clearly wasn't worried


10 months ago my mind was filled with so many "what ifs" and today, on the last day of school, I looked at my little person, my growing girl, and tears welled up in my eyes because she showed me. She squelched every concern I had. She freaking ROCKED her first year of school.

I eagerly opened her report card yesterday and I read about her "kind and gentle" personality and about what an enthusiastic learner she is. I beamed with pride. I marveled in the words that so accurately described my oldest daughter, my first born.

This morning, as I sent my baby girl off to school for the last day of the year, she looked so much bigger, so grown up. The backpack was no longer ready to knock her off her axis at any point. She excitedly carried her teacher's gifts that she helped decorate and HAD to write the notes herself.




It seems like yesterday she was learning to crawl and now she's reading me stories and writing notes to her friends. I no longer worry about what will happen when she's back in school next year and on her own. She has shown us all how ready she is for this and any new experience or challenge.

My concerns 10 months ago were all about me, me not being sure, me losing this grip on my little girl but you know what? I still get HUGE hugs when I pick her up, she still calls me momma and comes to me with her upsets, she still loves to snuggle and most of all, school or no school, she's still my baby girl.

last day of JK


Now I'm off to cry in my coffee for a few minutes and then I'll pull myself together and go pickup that big girl from school and take her for ice cream, we've BOTH totally earned it!


TBB Asks - all things entertainment

Monday, May 7, 2018


Another first Monday of the month and another edition of TBB Asks. This month's edition is all thing Entertainment!! Woot!! 


  1. Bah you got me right off the hop. Do I really have to choose? I guess, if I HAD to choose, I'd pick drama. I love me a good drama and there can be comedy in drama, no?
  2. Love both. I love fiction but I also love me a good true-life (or based-on) story. Yes, I know, I'm indecisive. Okay, I'll pick fiction just to pick and because that's mostly what I've been reading (aka listening to).
  3. I'm not being indecisive here (intentionally) but my answer is duplicitous. Right now, where I am in life my answer is at home but that's not always my preferred answer. I LOVE snuggling up on the couch with a glass of wine watching a good movie. BUT I also love going to the movies, getting a giant super-buttery popcorn and candy and watching a new flick. Sadly, my life doesn't allow me many movie nights and virtually none with Mr. B. Wahhhh.
  4. Musical. My first musical was "Rent" and I was immediately hooked. I haven't seen many but I hope to add a lot more to my "seen it" list.
  5. I love eating out period because no cooking and no dishes. This is a hard one for me (again) because I love to go out for breakfast but I also love a nice dinner out. If I had to pick, I'd say dinner but only because I could then get appetizers and dessert and not be judged. I like food. A LOT.
  6. The Alchemist. I barely remember the plot line (so time for a reread) but I vividly remember how I felt reading this book. If you haven't read it, you MUST.
  7. YES!! I had one last night and do almost every Saturday. Our neighbours come over and we play board games. My how life has changed from our bar-hopping days lol This is cheaper and way more fun.
  8. I'll go with golf. I haven't played in 2 years (because I was super pregnant last summer) but I love it (it's unfortunate how terrible I am at it though lol).
  9. Grey's Anatomy. I've watching from the beginning and am still watching.
  10. I don't get it? Am I supposed to pick old or new sitcoms? List them? Old: Seinfield. New: Modern Family. I may have answered this wrong but you'll deal.
  11. Mini golf but only because it can be outside and just reminds of me of dating when I was just out of school. lol. Bowling is fun too. Sadly, again, I'm terribly at both lol.
  12. Sour patch kids. YUM. Anything peanut butter and chocolate.
  13. Big and buttery. Mmmmm popcorn.
  14. YES! You can't not wear the glasses when you see a 3D movie.
  15. Dramatic fiction or "chick lit". But really I like to go between genres to switch things up.

Don't forget to visit the Blended Blog and linkup your answers below!!


Spring Foods

Monday, April 30, 2018


I missed the ball last Monday because, well, life. We had a birthday party and all kinds of stuff going on so blogging just didn't happen (story of my life though, right?!)

Anyways, trying to stay on task, this month at least, with the Monday posts... so here goes.

Food. Spring Food.

I'm always down for a food post, especially on where I get to tell you about all the things I like to eat. Honestly, I just like to eat and as a breastfeeding mom, I truthfully just want to eat all.the.time. Okay, I'm using breastfeeding as an excuse, I think I'm just naturally hungry all the time for all the things.



I may or may not be reading this post while eating chips. Okay, I am, and I'm moving on to chocolate next. I need an intervention.

Spring though. With Spring comes Summer and bathing suits and the "I've eating like crap for ____ months" panic... I'm there, I'm RIGHT THERE.

It's never New Year's for me because I'm wearing all the clothes and no one can really tell what's going on underneath. This, Spring, is the time of year I usually try and shift gears with all things food and exercise. Read: I FREAK OUT because "what have I DONE?!"

Enter: grilled chicken, corn on the cob, roasted red peppers, grilled asparagus, hamburgers

I'm not a salad-lover by nature, but I am inclined to add a few more salads to my weekly menu in the Spring. Most of this again in preparation for warmer weather clothing. Warmer weather also instinctively causes me to eat "lighter". I find myself not wanting heavier meals containing mostly comfort foods when it's hotter weather (maybe I should consider a move to a warmer climate - you know, in the best interest of my body lol).

 This tasty salad is a go-to!!

In the Spring I bake less and cook more. Foods that sneak back into my fridge are usually fresh, locally grown fruits and veggies but also, I won't lie, all of the ice cream (I cannot live a Spring/Summer without ice cream).

Basically, give me all the food all the time with a little more fruit, veggies and ice cream in the Spring lol. On that note, I'm very interested in seeing what Spring foods on are other's plates because I've always got room for some new menu ideas! Link up your posts below






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