the blog, revisted

Friday, August 10, 2018

The baby is napping, little man is watching a show (it's educational, I promise) and mini me is at camp for the day. I've got limited time to write so need my fingers to cooperate and move quickly (we can thank coffee for that).

I've had a love/hate relationship with my blog for the last few years. I continue to be unable to say "I'm not doing that anymore" but also completely unable to dive back into things. There are lots of reasons for my back and forth but primarily it's time and not having a complete vision.

This place has been a mismash of things and that's okay but I always had something greater in mind, something more purposeful than a recounting of my daily life (which most probably wouldn't find all that exciting). I tethered around multiple ideas and have written down some plans but they all fell by the wayside because when it came down to it, when I did have "free" time, my first inclination wasn't "I must blog". I miss writing though. I miss sharing but sharing scares me.

So here I am, once again, writing basically the same post I have written multiple times since the beginning of my blogging hiatus (which conveniently coincided with my return to work after baby # 3).

Here I sit, once more revisiting the idea of this blog and this place and the challenge I continue to be unsure.

I am still not ready to officially "quit" but I know that when I come back it won't be as it was.

There is no point to this post besides to say "hi, I'm still here, still not sure what I'm doing" lol.

Hope everyone is having an amazing summer xo

TBB Asks - Vacation Edition

Monday, July 2, 2018

  1. YES! Nothing extravagant but we have rented a cottage with friends for a week! We'll also be borrowing my dad and stepmom's trailer for a weekend with the kids.
  2. I have 3 kids 5 and under... even if we do no scheduled activities, I would hardly call it relaxing.
  3. I will vacation any month lol. I love the weather here in July and August so if we're staying close to home I'm not too picky where it falls.
  4. I've never been on a cruise but I can't say I'd turn down a free one lol. Not sure how I feel about being trapped on a boat though lol. One day.
  5. Can't say we have a vacation tradition... maybe we'll start something this year ;)
  6. My honeymoon was in June in Mexico and it was amazing. Beautiful weather, amazing food, lots of a great day trips. So much fun!
  7. I'm a pack it all kinda girl... even "packing light" is more than most people would regularly pack lol (just being honest). I always think I'm going to need something I don't pack.
  8. I have yet to stay in a condo or house sooooo I'm not qualified to answer lol. THOUGH I will be staying in a house with the Blended Blog ladies in October. I'll get back to you on that one.
  9. ALL THE THINGS. If you can't eat everything on vacation then when can you? I probably eat more seafood than I normally would when I'm on vacation. YUM.
  10. Warm. I love the warmth!

Link up your TBB Asks Vacation posts below!! HAPPY SUMMER

the last day of the first year of school

Thursday, June 28, 2018

It was 10 short months ago we sent her off for her first day of junior kindergarten. We walked the short walk with our wee girl and I was terrified for her for all of the unknowns. I was worried about her having to open her lunches and decide what to eat, I was concerned about her making friends, I wondered if she'd be on good behaviour. I struggled with the loss of control and sending my 4 year old out into the world as an independent little person.

she clearly wasn't worried

10 months ago my mind was filled with so many "what ifs" and today, on the last day of school, I looked at my little person, my growing girl, and tears welled up in my eyes because she showed me. She squelched every concern I had. She freaking ROCKED her first year of school.

I eagerly opened her report card yesterday and I read about her "kind and gentle" personality and about what an enthusiastic learner she is. I beamed with pride. I marveled in the words that so accurately described my oldest daughter, my first born.

This morning, as I sent my baby girl off to school for the last day of the year, she looked so much bigger, so grown up. The backpack was no longer ready to knock her off her axis at any point. She excitedly carried her teacher's gifts that she helped decorate and HAD to write the notes herself.

It seems like yesterday she was learning to crawl and now she's reading me stories and writing notes to her friends. I no longer worry about what will happen when she's back in school next year and on her own. She has shown us all how ready she is for this and any new experience or challenge.

My concerns 10 months ago were all about me, me not being sure, me losing this grip on my little girl but you know what? I still get HUGE hugs when I pick her up, she still calls me momma and comes to me with her upsets, she still loves to snuggle and most of all, school or no school, she's still my baby girl.

last day of JK

Now I'm off to cry in my coffee for a few minutes and then I'll pull myself together and go pickup that big girl from school and take her for ice cream, we've BOTH totally earned it!

TBB Asks - all things entertainment

Monday, May 7, 2018

Another first Monday of the month and another edition of TBB Asks. This month's edition is all thing Entertainment!! Woot!! 

  1. Bah you got me right off the hop. Do I really have to choose? I guess, if I HAD to choose, I'd pick drama. I love me a good drama and there can be comedy in drama, no?
  2. Love both. I love fiction but I also love me a good true-life (or based-on) story. Yes, I know, I'm indecisive. Okay, I'll pick fiction just to pick and because that's mostly what I've been reading (aka listening to).
  3. I'm not being indecisive here (intentionally) but my answer is duplicitous. Right now, where I am in life my answer is at home but that's not always my preferred answer. I LOVE snuggling up on the couch with a glass of wine watching a good movie. BUT I also love going to the movies, getting a giant super-buttery popcorn and candy and watching a new flick. Sadly, my life doesn't allow me many movie nights and virtually none with Mr. B. Wahhhh.
  4. Musical. My first musical was "Rent" and I was immediately hooked. I haven't seen many but I hope to add a lot more to my "seen it" list.
  5. I love eating out period because no cooking and no dishes. This is a hard one for me (again) because I love to go out for breakfast but I also love a nice dinner out. If I had to pick, I'd say dinner but only because I could then get appetizers and dessert and not be judged. I like food. A LOT.
  6. The Alchemist. I barely remember the plot line (so time for a reread) but I vividly remember how I felt reading this book. If you haven't read it, you MUST.
  7. YES!! I had one last night and do almost every Saturday. Our neighbours come over and we play board games. My how life has changed from our bar-hopping days lol This is cheaper and way more fun.
  8. I'll go with golf. I haven't played in 2 years (because I was super pregnant last summer) but I love it (it's unfortunate how terrible I am at it though lol).
  9. Grey's Anatomy. I've watching from the beginning and am still watching.
  10. I don't get it? Am I supposed to pick old or new sitcoms? List them? Old: Seinfield. New: Modern Family. I may have answered this wrong but you'll deal.
  11. Mini golf but only because it can be outside and just reminds of me of dating when I was just out of school. lol. Bowling is fun too. Sadly, again, I'm terribly at both lol.
  12. Sour patch kids. YUM. Anything peanut butter and chocolate.
  13. Big and buttery. Mmmmm popcorn.
  14. YES! You can't not wear the glasses when you see a 3D movie.
  15. Dramatic fiction or "chick lit". But really I like to go between genres to switch things up.

Don't forget to visit the Blended Blog and linkup your answers below!!

Spring Foods

Monday, April 30, 2018

I missed the ball last Monday because, well, life. We had a birthday party and all kinds of stuff going on so blogging just didn't happen (story of my life though, right?!)

Anyways, trying to stay on task, this month at least, with the Monday posts... so here goes.

Food. Spring Food.

I'm always down for a food post, especially on where I get to tell you about all the things I like to eat. Honestly, I just like to eat and as a breastfeeding mom, I truthfully just want to eat all.the.time. Okay, I'm using breastfeeding as an excuse, I think I'm just naturally hungry all the time for all the things.

I may or may not be reading this post while eating chips. Okay, I am, and I'm moving on to chocolate next. I need an intervention.

Spring though. With Spring comes Summer and bathing suits and the "I've eating like crap for ____ months" panic... I'm there, I'm RIGHT THERE.

It's never New Year's for me because I'm wearing all the clothes and no one can really tell what's going on underneath. This, Spring, is the time of year I usually try and shift gears with all things food and exercise. Read: I FREAK OUT because "what have I DONE?!"

Enter: grilled chicken, corn on the cob, roasted red peppers, grilled asparagus, hamburgers

I'm not a salad-lover by nature, but I am inclined to add a few more salads to my weekly menu in the Spring. Most of this again in preparation for warmer weather clothing. Warmer weather also instinctively causes me to eat "lighter". I find myself not wanting heavier meals containing mostly comfort foods when it's hotter weather (maybe I should consider a move to a warmer climate - you know, in the best interest of my body lol).

 This tasty salad is a go-to!!

In the Spring I bake less and cook more. Foods that sneak back into my fridge are usually fresh, locally grown fruits and veggies but also, I won't lie, all of the ice cream (I cannot live a Spring/Summer without ice cream).

Basically, give me all the food all the time with a little more fruit, veggies and ice cream in the Spring lol. On that note, I'm very interested in seeing what Spring foods on are other's plates because I've always got room for some new menu ideas! Link up your posts below

to Annabelle on her 5th Birthday

Sunday, April 22, 2018


My baby, I know you don't like when I call you that big girl, but you have to know you will always be my baby, even when you're all the way grown. You're the first, you're the one who made me a mom.

I have thought about what I wanted to tell you on your birthday, what I wanted you to know... The thing is, I hope that what I tell you is what you know already, I love you. I love you so big and so fierce that nothing, nothing could ever change it. Even if I'm not around to tell you, my love for you is so giant, you will feel it. Always.

I know I tell you all the time, to the point you tell me "I know mom", but my heart literally beats for you and your brother and sister. No matter how bad your behaviour, I am your mom and I LOVE YOU.

So now that you know that, here's what I want you to know about yourself. You are a bright light. In a world that sometimes feels full of darkness and sadness, you are light. You shine so bright my little star, you always have.

There's a quote on canvas in your room that reads "she leaves a little glitter where ever she goes" and I picked this out because it couldn't capture your essence any better. You sparkle and everywhere you go, everyone you meet, has just a little more of a twinkle from your essence.

You gravitate towards music and dance. You spin and twirl and do all kinds of "routines" around the house that we all love to watch. You're an entertainer through and through you love an audience even when that audience is your 6 month old sister. Truthfully, she might actually be your biggest fan.

No one can talk like you. I still remember people being blown away how early you spoke and how much and how clear. Since you were my first child I just assumed this was normal but in hindsight, you could have an actual conversation much sooner than any child I've ever met. The thing is, since you started talking you haven't stopped. This is something I love but that drives me (and I'm sure your teachers) crazy! I rest assured knowing that you'll never have trouble keeping a conversation going or filling an awkward silence... or any silence for that matter.

When you started school this past September I was a ball of nerves. I was worried how you would manage on your own, how you would make friends, how you would eat your lunches. The truth of the matter is that I was worried how you would do without me and what I would do without knowing all the details of your day. Naturally, you surpassed all expectations. You each your lunch, you open all of the packaging and you have lots of little friends you love to talk about.

The other thing you starting school made us very aware of is how smart you are and how eager to learn you are. You practice letters, writing, math without any instruction or direction or prodding from us. These are the things you want to do and this is how you want to spend your free time at home. Its a remarkable thing to see such a small person so excited about learning. I hope you keep this thirst for knowledge, because it will serve you well.

I admire your memory and your ability to beat me at the "memory" game even when I'm trying my hardest. Seriously, it's embarrassing how many times and how badly I've lost to you. When we first started playing I actually thought I'd have to fake lose... no faking here. Just losing.

Annabelle, you're funny, wild, kind, thoughtful, sweet, hilarious, outgoing.. you're so many amazing things that I couldn't possibly list them all. What you need to know, what you need to take away from this post is that you were meant to be mine. You were meant to be my baby girl and you will always be that, no matter how old you are.

I love you my big girl, to the moon and back and even more than that.


Spring Cleaning

Monday, April 16, 2018

It's Spring Cleaning day at the Blended Blog...

This will not be a post with remarkable before and after pictures featuring all of the progress I've made around my home this "Spring" (I use that term VERY loosely, because we still have snow in the forecast... SNOW!).

Instead of skipping the Spring cleaning post altogether I thought I'd share some "quick win" cleaning things that I hope to accomplish in the not so distant future (i.e. when Lillian is sleeping more consistently and when Oliver is in daycare... wish me luck). I'm hoping that writing these things down not only motivates me to get my butt in gear but also inspires you to scratch some of your own quick cleaning things off your list.

I'll be honest here, I have a cleaning service come to the house every 3 weeks. Yes, it costs money (though they're actually very reasonable) but yes, I'm willing forgo some other luxuries to have this. We still tidy the house and I try and vacuum daily (okay, sometimes that just means pressing the button on the robot vacuum, whatever) BUT the big stuff, the bathrooms and the floors, get done by someone else. Why? Because this mom doesn't have time where there aren't little people all over me and when I do, floors and bathrooms are the last thing I want to be doing.

So when I'm talking about "Spring Cleaning" I'm more thinking about areas of my house that could do with a little more organization because, overall, I like to think our house is fairly clean (minus the dog hair, because we have a golden retriever and there's simply no escaping it).

Here's my Spring Cleaning to-do list (which will likely turn into a Summer and Fall to-do list lol - just being honest)

Sort through the kids dressers and get rid of clothes that don't fit anymore - this is a constant struggle. Apparently kids grow fast! This will also need to involve going through the bags of clothes with bigger sizes we have and maybe a little shopping ;)

Go through my own clothes. The good news is that this actually has to happen because Annabelle's school is doing a clothing drive next month (money is raised for both her school and a charity) so I'm going to make this happen! This also may involve some shopping post cleanup ;) (I'll take any excuse to shop, obviously)

Purge the bathroom vanity. I love me a good subscription box and free hair, skincare, makeup sample but I'm drowning in them. I throw them all in my vanity and then they're lost in a massive hair, skin and makeup black hole. Seriously folks, how do you keep this stuff organized? We have a double vanity and I think it's fair to say 95% of it is occupied by my stuff... oh the shame.

Tackle the junk drawers/baskets. You KNOW you've got a junk drawer (or 5) around the house. We have a lot. It seems like every time a space is clear we fill it with random stuff. These drawers require constant monitoring because not only do Brent and I throw stuff in them, but the kids do too. Chances are, if something is missing in our house, it's in one of these dreaded drawers.

I could give a laundry list of things here but I'm going to stop. I'm doing this because 1. you don't need to know how unorganized we are lol and 2. because I don't want to overwhelm myself at the thought of all the things I have to do and the lack of time I have available to do it.

Last maternity leave I made the mistake of writing out a list of ALL.THE.THINGS. I wanted to do around the house while I was off. It was a two page, one item per line, kinda list. Sure, I knocked a few things off but mostly the list just served to make me feel inadequate about the things I was able to accomplish while home with my littles. What did I learn from this? Whatever goals you're setting for yourself, Spring cleaning or otherwise, make them realistic, make them challenging but doable. You got this.

Happy Monday, odds are I am NOT cleaning today lol

What's on your Spring Cleaning list???