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Monday, November 14, 2016

I have opened up the "write post" window more times than I can count.

I have sat many times, with tired eyes, staring at a big blank box while the cursor blinked repeatedly reminding me of all the words that weren't being typed.

I have thought a lot about this place, this space where I've shared quite a bit of my life and all the people I've shared it with.

But I haven't written. Not much anyways.

I don't have a great excuse. There's be no traumatic event to rationalize my absence. No justification for all the comments that have gone without a response and no good defense for all of the posts I haven't read.

I'm at a crux of sorts and I really don't know what that means or what things will look like on the other side... or IF there is an other side for that matter.

All I know is that, for no good reason, I found myself reflecting on all I have shared, the stories, the pictures and so many fairly personal aspects of my life and I felt naked, exposed. I've received criticism, we all have, but this is different. This is the vulnerability that's always existed but only recently come to the forefront of my awareness and truthfully, it has silenced me.

That and life is busy as all get out.

Am I doing the wrong thing sharing? Is there a point? At some point in my 'professional' life, will it come back to bite me? Will my children resent that I've shared so many details of their lives? Will I regret writing... will I regret NOT writing?

I don't know. I just don't know.

What I do know is that I've missed this place and these people, the ones who keep coming back even when my voice is lost behind pinterest-friendly graphics and link-laden posts.

The point? I'm still here. I am here wandering around in the in-between. I am trying to navigate this insanely busy life while also sorting out what my life in blog-land might look like. Spoiler alert: I've not yet figured ANY of it out yet.

As I'm writing I'm resisting the strong urge to poll you, to see what you want from me... maybe this was my misstep from the beginning. Maybe trying to do and be all the things the internet tells you to be as a 'blogger' was too much. Maybe I need more time to figure out what this space is for me.. only, it's not like I'm rolling in spare time over here to work through all these things.

Anywho... HI and I'm okay (thank you, to you sweet and kind souls checking on me) I am just in a strange state of figuring out a lot of 'next steps'. I will get there.

In the meantime, treat each other with love and kindness, that's all the world needs right now

xo

Sweater Weather

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

There are so many things to love about fall... pumpkin everything, soups, thanksgiving (well, for us Canadian folks lol), Halloween and the excitement that comes along with the encroaching holiday season.

My friends and I at the Blended Blog came up with the October Style Series to feature some of our favorite fall pieces. Okay, in all honesty, I had very little (read: nothing) to do with the creation of this series... I literally picked one of the looks and here we are. Also, as will be painfully obvious, I have been not organized enough to take blog-quality pics for the post. Soooooo you get iphone pics care of my husband (which seemingly automatically reduces the quality of a normal iphone pic - sorry hun, photography is not your thing)... hence the lack of focus.

Moving along.

Now, initially I was worried because the weather here has been unseasonably warm and I picked "sweaters" but it seems as though mother nature really wanted me to get this post up because the mornings have been pretty cool lately - making a sweater necessary, at least for part of the day.

As previously mentioned, I'm not organized enough to find a date/time to dress-up for the purpose of these posts so these outfits are real-live outfits I've been wearing this fall. Also, they were taken on my way out the door in the morning so we didn't have time to take a ton of pics to get the elusive perfect shot.

In hindsight, probably wouldn't have taken that much more time to make Mr. B use the good camera but I digress... also, I hadn't had coffee yet... so that explains the not thinking of using the good camera and the super tired glint in my eye.

Onto the sweaters and stuff...


fall cardigan and Stella dot Sunday bag
this boyfriend cardi is an oldie but a goodie. Thank YOU Old Navy for the boyfriend cardi. It's pretty much a wardrobe staple (in every color).

burgundy cardigan and stella and dot sunday bag
that pretty print top was an awesome Winner's find, jeans are 7 for all mankind (less budget friendly), Sam Edelman boots from last year (my FAV splurge thanks to Deena) and the bag is my new love from Stella and Dot (genuine leather Sunday bag in Saddle).


fall style cardigan and stella dot sunday bag
Sweater is another oldie (these cardi's don't go out of style) and it's Pure by Alfred Sung (from Zellers - do my Canadian friends remember Zellers? the BEST! lol like I said, it's old), blouse is H&M (still available), pants are Old Navy (good old Pixie pants), shoes are Payless (old) and bag is Stella and Dot (same in previous pic)


So that's how I'm wearing sweaters this fall! Make sure you go and visit my friend Abbie over at the Blended Blog to see how she's rocking a sweater this fall and then check out the other Blended Blog ladies and what they've been wearing. But FIRST, linkup your fall fashion post below!

the blended blog october style series



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Monday Moments of Gratitude - October 3, 2016

Monday, October 3, 2016


I'm so happy you're here!! 

I'm making a point to post on Mondays about moments I am grateful for in the past week. We can all use a little more intentional thinking about things we're grateful for. With that said, I hope you'll continue to join me in gratitude on Mondays :)



Here are a few moments from this past week that I am grateful for:

WAIT! Before I get started I'm going to forewarn that I didn't have time to edit the pics (or size properly) and given that it's nearly 9pm on Sunday... well... it's just not happening folks.

Also, given the time and my level of fatigue... this is going to be short and sweet.

Sick day - yes, I know, you're wondering how on earth this is a good thing and truthfully, it's not. I was so so so sick on Monday. I haven't felt that terrible in a long time. Like an idiot, I drove nearly an hour to work and when I got there I thought to myself "what are you DOING?". I had a quick chat with my supervisor, packed myself up and went home. I fought EVERY urge I had when I got home to clean the house or do errands and I literally laid on the couch ALL day. ALL day. I needed it. Anything else would have resulted in my being sick a LOT longer. Sometimes, you really just need to listen to that little voice saying "take care of you". Also, I finished "Nashville" so basically I got my life back lol.

Girl's day and figuring stuff out - so the day after my sick day, I had half the day off because little miss had a specialist appointment. We ended up having a great breakfast out together and did a few fun things. She has had a few issues with sickness, coughing, breathing etc. so we finally got a diagnosis of asthma. I was shocked at first but not nearly as shocked as I have been with how well she has been taking her twice a day puffers. Seriously, this kid is a rockstar. Don't get me wrong, I'm not happy she has asthma, but I'm glad to know, to have a plan and to know where we go from here. I'm also so impressed with this kid who exceeds my expectations daily.



not THAT is a breakfast!!!

obviously she deserved a timbit after being poked and prodded ;)


practicing taking her medicine... she now presses it herself and takes her big 6 deep breaths with very little help.

Wellness time - Wednesday I attended a big meeting for work. Part of the meeting involved picking an activity to help foster resilience/wellness so my coworker and I decided to take a walk by the lake. I'm a little upset with myself I didn't take some pics of the scenery but it was an absolutely beautiful setting and I got to catch up with one of my work besties.

Stella & Dot stuff - yes, I work full time and yes, I decided to become a stylist with Stella & Dot which kind of seems like crazy making because I can't keep up with blogland... but here's the thing: it's fun for me. I've enjoyed the parties I've thrown/attended and I went to a training this past weekend a it literally just felt like girl-time with pretty things. Plus, I've been building a pretty solid accessory collection lol.

it's all about #positivity


Running for a cure - a while back I signed up for the CIBC run for the cure. I had hoped to raise 1000 for breast cancer but didn't quite make it. I came in at 487, which just gives me more to work towards next year. For those who don't know, I lose a friend, Nicole, this past year to metastatic breast cancer and I signed up for her. It was so much more emotional than I imagined, I cried almost as soon as I got there and I was so very thankful my friend decided to come with me for support (I didn't realize I'd need it - hindsight, I DEFINITELY needed it!). I was grateful to see all the survivors but my heart was heavy that Nicole wasn't one of them. I also got to see her mom and husband, who also came out to support a cause so very close to their hearts. At the end of the day I'm grateful to be able to be here to raise funds and awareness about breast cancer. I was not in the shape I should have been, but I finished, with tears in my eyes and a "for Nicole" sticker on my back. AND a big fat special THANK YOU to my sweet blogger friends who supported me from afar - you ladies ROCK!


ignore my fluorescent pink face lol!!! I need to workout more apparently


Have a beautiful week friends!! I'll actually be back on Wednesday this week posting a fall fashion post!! lookout!

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Monday Moments of Gratitude - September 26, 2016

Monday, September 26, 2016


I'm so happy you're here!! 

I'm making a point to post on Mondays about moments I am grateful for in the past week. We can all use a little more intentional thinking about things we're grateful for. With that said, I hope you'll continue to join me in gratitude on Mondays :)



Here are a few moments from this past week that I am grateful for:

Before I jump into the awesome parts of my week, I'm going to share some challenges. Lately I've been struggling with the blog (in case that isn't obvious). It's not because I don't want to be here or don't have anything to say (goodness knows, I'll never run out of things to say) but finding the time and energy lately has been the hardest part for me. I haven't read or commented much at all and my Monday posts are pretty much the only ones I'm even remotely keeping up with. I apologize for my lack of engagement but know that my reasons, aside from my Nashville addiction (which is nearly finished lol), are good ones and I know my priorities are in the right places right now. At some point I'll turn my focus back to this place a little more, but to give a time frame on that is impossible. So thank you, to you beautiful people who read and comment and follow despite getting very little back. I can't even tell you how grateful I am to and for you. For those who will always be here when I come back and don't hold this 'break' against me. 

This week started with me getting sick which was obviously amazing. Or not. Mini me and I are also rocking a pretty hardcore cough. Little man has a cold and runny noses are shared by all. Thank goodness I bought the Costco sized box of tissues... hindsight, I probably should have bought stocks in Kleenex.

A day off - I get a Friday off every once in a while and this week was it. It literally could NOT have come at a better time. I pulled my neck earlier in the week so I booked an hour-long massage which was perfect (and fixed my neck, so yay). I got some shopping done and a few things accomplished around the house. A good day.

 post-massage relaxing 


Lots of help - Mr. B found out he had to work out of town all weekend and I was NOT looking forward to doing all of the things with no help. Thankfully, I had LOTS of help and ended up getting a ton of stuff accomplished. I'm talking laundry, food prep, homemade soup, some cleaning etc. PLUS having some help meant I didn't have to take Ollie to Annabelle's dance class during nap time (thank goodness) and got to have a much needed night out Saturday night.

nothing like homemade butternut squash soup! YUM


Girls night out - a night out with some awesome women is always food for my soul. Plus the actual food was amazing. As was the wine :) But neither as great as the company. I seriously need to try and do this more often. 
that's lipstick, not wine lips lol and my Stella and Dot "natalie" necklace (LOVE it!)



Another family nap! - okay, this is another thing I could handle doing on a weekly basis! Mr. B surprised us by coming home early Sunday and we were all exhausted so during Ollie's second nap, Mr. B, little miss and I snuggled in bed and watched a movie. I only slept for about 20min but it was a glorious 20min. I also got to sneak in a little Nashville be+ore anyone else woke up lol. #priorities 
I'm sure he'll be thrilled I posted this lol but how sweet are they?!


Alright, my allergies are INSANE right now so I need to get some meds and tissue and call it a night. Have an AWESOME week and whatever challenges come your way remember, there are just as many (if not more) beautiful moments in the every day.

xo

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Monday Moments of Gratitude - September 19, 2016

Monday, September 19, 2016


I'm so happy you're here!! 

I'm making a point to post on Mondays about moments I am grateful for in the past week. We can all use a little more intentional thinking about things we're grateful for. With that said, I hope you'll continue to join me in gratitude on Mondays :)


Here are a few moments from this past week that I am grateful for:

One year with the Blended Blog - last week marked a year that some blog friends and I started "The Blended Blog". In all honesty, I can't take much created for that blog, because I'm very out of the loop right now and could definitely be considered 'the weakest link' but despite my absenteeism, the ladies remain lovely and are posting some great stuff. We celebrated one-year by hosting a scavenger-hunt style giveaway ($150 gift card of your choice) AND there's till a few days to get your entries in. Just head over to the Blended Blog and check out the posts Monday-Friday as you get 9 chances to win PER day - you can't beat those odds my friends.



Getting out of the house - work has been busier than normal as my job is switched up at the moment, this involves a bit of commuting and a somewhat scattered schedule. Despite that, I still managed to get out of the house 3 nights this week (unheard of!). Golf lessons Monday night, the driving range Tuesday night and Olivia's Freezer Friday night! It was busy but also productive, so there's that.



My tiny dancer - little miss had her first dance class at a dance studio this past weekend. She insisted her daddy take her (I shared a little more about that in Instagram) and despite my heart breaking a little, it was also touching to see the relationship between her and her daddy. Plus, he remembered to take pics (he's lucky) and he brought me home a coffee. Oh and little miss was a star (obviously).


A lunch time run - I'm stuck somewhere between eating all the things and watching all the tv and wanting to be healthy and taking the necessary steps to get to that point. The good news is that I've been slowly moving in the right direction. My schedule and motivation isn't such that I'm doing ALL (or even of a fraction) of what I need to do but I'm getting there. I choked down a few salads (unfortunately I also ate McDonalds too.... *hangs head in shame*) and went for a run (yes "a" run, I'm a work in progress alright). I mostly decided to go for a run because I was freezing in the office and there's a gorgeous park by the office I'm working in right now. Now.... to get myself doing that a few times a week lol.



Family nap (and family time) - this might be the highlight of my week. Saturday was a rainy, gloomy kind of day. Brent was FINALLY home for a day so we did the obligatory running around (groceries) and then headed home in time for Oliver's nap. Mr. B had the fantastic idea for he, Annabelle and I to snuggle in bed and watch a movie (aka nap) and miraculously, ALL 4 of us had overlapping naps. It was GLORIOUS! We spent the rest of the day being lazy and enjoying each other's company which is just what we all needed.



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Happy Blogiversary to The Blended Blog

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

The Blended Blog is celebrating it's one-year anniversary!!!

AND because we love you all so much, we're hosting a Giveaway for $150 gift card of your choice!!

Get on over there every day this week to participate in the Scavenger hunt for your chance to win :)


Monday Moments of Gratitude - September 12, 2016

Monday, September 12, 2016


I'm so happy you're here!! 

I'm making a point to post on Mondays about moments I am grateful for in the past week. We can all use a little more intentional thinking about things we're grateful for. With that said, I hope you'll continue to join me in gratitude on Mondays :)



This past week seemed fairly chaotic on a number of levels. It wasn't a bad week per se, it just seemed busier than most weeks (which is saying something, because I feel like I'm always busy now that I'm working). Despite the hectic nature of the week, there are certainly a number of moments worth celebrating/sharing/logging in the memory books.

Here are a few moments from this past week that I am grateful for:

Improving my game - week 2 of my golf lessons (I mentioned them last week) and seeing improvement. Not that big of a deal for most, but I haven't played in years and it feels good to at least see some kind of progress after 2 lessons. Too bad golf season is almost over here lol. 

My first trunk show - I had my first trunk show this week! Part of the reason I love Stella and Dot so much is because the trunk shows are really just great girl's nights with a little dress-up and shopping mixed in. It was great to catch up with some of my favorite ladies AND share some pretty stuff. A few lovelies that weren't able to attend even placed orders :) thanks ladies!

stella dot trunk show


Quite time - with Mr. B out of town ALL weekend (like 6am Sat til late Sun night) I was parenting solo. That combined with my currently tantrum-prone toddler made for a rather interesting Saturday. And then, like the angels that they are, my neighbors offered to take mini-me fall strawberry picking Sunday morning. This just happened to coincide with little man's first nap. That meant quiet time for mom! You want to know what I did with that time? I took one look around my house - laundry unfolded, dishes to be done, floors to be vacuumed - I made myself a cup of coffee and watched two episodes of Nashville and vowed to not feel one bit guilty about it. Fear not, I kicked it into high gear later and moderately tidied the house, did some meal-prep and finished the god forsaken laundry. Go me.


I'm working out of town for the next 8 weeks which will mean 1 hour drive each way to work (yuck) so gosh only know what that'll mean about here all I can promise is I'll do my best :) Happy Monday friends... I'll help start your week with a smile 

happy little boy


WAIT - before you run off did you know this week marks the one year anniversary of The Blended Blog???? WELL we're hosting a Scavenger Hunt/Giveaway so go there RIGHT NOW for your chance to win :)


What moments are you grateful for this past week? Linkup your gratitude posts below!!


Linky Rules:

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  2. Please link posts related to gratitude.
  3. Check out as many links as you can.
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